This picture was taken the morning i went in, eight hours before we finally got to meet her! I can look at this picture and see that 1. i did infact put a little weight on in the face and 2. i have lost most of my baby weight. However, most of the weight means that i still have the last 10-8 lbs left. I think i heard "
dont worry, breastfeeding will make it just melt off" one too many times, because when 6
wks rolled around and i was nowhere near being able to wear my
pre pregnancy clothes, i was more than a little depressed.
I have been running since i got the go ahead, but have been getting discouraged lately. Its hard to keep my focus when i cant see the point of getting up early, dying on every run, when things still aren't fitting. in the first 6 wks i would randomly try on something, hoping the breastfeeding had magically melted the weight away, like i had been disillusioned to believe. i decided that was counterproductive though. i'm the kind of person that consoles herself with chocolate instead of a run.
But this morning, in my desperation to find something to wear for church i tried on some of my pants again. and hallelujah i found a pair that fit!! Even though i usually need a belt to keep them up, and this morning i didnt, i was encouraged. So i tried on some jeans. I didnt think i would be able to pull them up, but i could! and i could even button both pairs that i tried on! I am still not ready to be wearing them in public (buttoning them created some MAJOR muffin top), but i feel so much better knowing that maybe i will be ready for my swimsuit in November when we leave for Australia!! It is the motivation that i needed to keep getting up and running! I'm hoping at 3 months postpartum i will be wearing my jeans again- minus the muffin top!